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Hi and welcome to my page of wonderland randomness! I am scourgeclaww99. I am a hardcore fangirl at heart. I roll play as many characters. Right now mostly : Luna ,Catwoman ,The Puppet ,and and some points Scourge. I try to update art every week and new posts and try to get to all off you're comments. But with the loss of my tablet, that is really hard to make possible now. Asks and commissions and art trades are open so ask us! I may get confused w/ sayings once in a while. I try to be mature as possible and not have any mature theme do art work is open to public and able to view. I'm a fandom girl who loves her friends even if your bysexual ,transgeder ,etc. etc. I love fnaf ,warrior cats ,starwars ,anime ,and animals of course! I'm a Mexican who knows a TON about anime and Japanese culture. No I'm not part Japanese just Mexican American. I have a mother 3 sisters and 2 brothers. I was abused by my dad. I have a high stress level and is discouraged easily. I don't like being bullied. I was bullied a lot and still is. I have 2 annoying but cute dogs and a fish. Which strangely vanished.(RIP Kovu?)
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5 betta/core members watch me [X]
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44 likes on one deviantation []

so yeah hope you enjoy my future art and styles Goodbye don't die and remember You are beautiful just the way you are!! :heart: :la: :omg: :dummy:
Oh yeah, I might be deleting this.

My Senpia: Kylo Ren.
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Kill me now. Please... I don't deserve to be in this world....:( Betting you all forgot I have existed.
Why do I ship Reylo? Because it's FUCKING AMAZING!! Also my friend asked me that at school. So HERE IS UR ANSWER....god my life is so sad and lonely.....:|
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I HATE VALENTINES DAY! I ALWAYS GET SICK!!!:rage:
The Joker.
I got bored. So I did this. Joker as a cat. R.I.P Heath Ledger.
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Say hello to Aspin and Freak! CC
Aspin is the cat. Freak is the sock puppet. Let's just say, Aspin is kinda weird. Also Aspin wears gloves. His paws aren't black. Also, Aspin is blind. Strangely, Freak can see. So he is Aspin's eyes.

Aspin was disowned as a kitten, because of his blindness, at 3 months old. Also because of his strange colors. He grew up with multiple trust issues. He learned how to speak English, and walk on his two hind legs sometimes, but all fours is better. 
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Trap Queen CC.
Yup. This was made on scratch. Trap Queen is a singer. Thanks for looking at it!!
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Riku(cat form)
Yeah, this character is new. You can learn about her on my Scratch account. Also I will try to make a journal on her soon. Hope you guys like her, assuming that you guys still look here.
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I might delete my account. Just a heads up for you guys. 
Lost, the wolf Dragon
Well This is the new and improves Glitches! After MULTIPLE changes, decision making, and tweaks, I finally made her! So yeah! My updated fursona!
Sane side
Name- Lost
Gander- Female
Species- Wolf Dragon
Traits- Very in-social. Must be in a comfortable environment to be able to talk to others. Or just an introvert. Sharp eye sight, great stalker, fast learner.
Age- 17.
INsane side
Traits- Will attack anything that moves. Kills anything that is weak. Will use anything to get what it wants. Lurks in the darkness. Only can turn into this by being in the full moon at midnight.
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    This has been happening constantly. So what happened is that some kid in my school figured out that I'm a furry. He now calls me disgusting. It's really been getting to me. My friends now seem to have rejected me because they found out. They don't talk to me anymore like they used too. I go out in the world and constantly feel judged and attacked. Ever since Trumps election, I have really figured out how many people HATE Mexicans for just another chance, and maybe a last chance, to be safe. I go out in the world, and just feel hated from people. They judge me for who I am not. I am bad at math which really doesn't hep. I fit the Bad Mexican profile. Also my family has always been THE mathematicians. I'm just here. With art. That is my only talent. They want me to be the EXACT brain clone as them But I really just can't. So I'm kinds the outcast. No one wants me anymore. People call me wonderful, but I see the pity in their eyes. They try to understand, but they can't. They have never felt hated like me. From 2+ communities.
Fangirl=delusional person with no life.
Furry=disgusting person who's only interest is porn and nasty things.
Reylo= stupid shit with nothing better to do.
MEXICAN= A stupid drug dealer that does not belong here. THey should go back to their country, and we don't care id they die there, because they re nothing and they will be nothing.
This what people think of me. All the hate I receive on a daily basis. Yes I am happy at times, and I feel good about this, but people are constantly bring me down. I can't defend myself because I don't talk. No one wants to hear my pleas for help, or my cries for forgiveness. At this point I have just become background noise stuck on repeat. No one thinks or even listens to me. I just want to be in a hole with all this sadness, and everyone else's so they never have to feel this way, like I do. I can't help but instantly think like this. It's been a day to day struggle. People have told me to just get over it, but you can't. You are at the bottom of the ocean with no air to swim up. You are stuck there.
It's impossible. Like that Rhymes of sticks and stones. Words do hurt more than broken bones, because they never stay with you for long. It's a funny memory. But this is one that sticks with you. You see how people see you. How they view you. It's just a wound that never heals properly. This all I can now feel. Happiness is now almost an illusion to me now. I just want to be in a box forever. But I can't. I broke a long time ago. I see the true secret of the world, and politics. I see how corrupt it is. How far we will go to see who is right. Even if it means death of others.

Just please. Help me.

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We're all mad here
I'm somewhat improving!! I just like Alice in Wonderland, so I drew my favorite character! Hope you guys like it!!
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    Alright. So I am not trying to be mean or annoying, but I am just trying to prove a point. If you say that Kylo is is abusive, then why did Rey try to kill him? Huh? If she is not abusive, then why did she mess him up?!?!? Huh?! Why did she invade his mind? Huh?!? And why did she leave a facial and mental scar?! HUH?!?!?!?!?!? if anyone is abusive, it is Rey! I know that many people think that because of the interrogation scene. I mean, he was going for the fucking map. THIS IS WAR!! YOU NEED INFORMATION!!! If you found someone with a very crucial map what else would you fucking do? Ask them "Please miss pretty, can I have your map?". HELL NO!! Don't try to mess up peoples dreams, and they are not in a relation ship. YOU GUYS ARE IDIOTS! Kylo tortures Poe and Rey for the SAMETHING!!!!! He tries to kill Poe, but he is not doing shit to Rey. If He is abusive because he is a torturer, then all of the rebels are abusive, and the jedi, and the empire are victims? So is Obi-Wan abusive for messing up Anakin? And With Anakin, he choked his wife, and was always after her, until she finally gave in!!! If Kylo is abusive, then think about Baris, and how she cut up all those poor clones!! If you had telekinesis and wanted to get in someones mind who had the same power and wanted info to get power, you would do the same thing!!!! HAVE SYMPATHY! THESE ARE PEOPLE WHO HAVE A HEART AND A LIFE TO! THEY WANT TO HAVE  FUN!! PLUS THEY AREN'T IN A RELATIONSHIP!!! OH MY GOD!!!! I am going to cuss this out. Well thanks for reading. I think I broke the my keys. Well bye guys. 
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    All there was under Rey was blood. On her hands. Surrounding her. She looked up. She was in a snowy forest. Her friends dead right under her. Then she saw Ben on the ground. Blood pooling under him. The ground between him an her cracked. her friends now falling down into the planet's core. Then there rose a cackle, out from the darkness. The darkness was looming over her. The cackle grew louder. Then it move toward Ben, or rather, Kylo. The darkness was all over him. then, it dragged him, further into the trees in the darkness. She could here his screams in fear, and pain. Rey was being grabbed by a dark entity. It was warping around her legs and arms. It was dragging her down. Unable to move, Rey was screaming in fear, trying to move. It let go, and Rey fell into darkness, then- She woke up with a sudden jolt. she rose off from Ben's chest. She looked at the window. The stars were shining brightly. The moon was at it's peak. It's midnight, she thought to herself. She sat up for a minute analyzing her dream. She wanted to wake up Ben. After waiting a few moments, Rey put her hand on Ben's shoulder. 
    "Ben? Be-," She was cut off
    "Yeah? What is it? Can't sleep?" 
    Rey was surprised. She did not expect him to reply so quickly."Yeah. How long have you been awake?"
    "About 15 minutes."
    "Bad dream as well?"
    "Yeah."
    "What was it about?"
    "I'd rather not tell you."
    "Come on," she grabbed Ben's face and pulled it toward her. "I old you what happened at Jakku. Just tell me."
    Ben sighed. You were stubborn enough to find Snoke. He tried to kill you and succeeded. He pulled me back to the dark. I couldn't stand loosing you.
    "Hey I'm still here aren't I?"
    "Yeah. What about yours?"
    "I killed everyone I loved. And the time when we were fighting when we first met. Darkness took you an dragged me down." She moves her thumb to Ben's scar, also brushing the hair from his face.
    Ben grabbed her hand touching his scar. "Hey, stop blaming yourself. You did what you had to do."
    "I know."
    "If you want, I could take you to see Finn and Poe," Ben offered knowing it would make her quite happy.
    "Really?"
    "Yeah."
    "Thank you."
    "Come on. Let's get back to bed," He held his arm out for Rey to lay on. Rey took her chance. She grabbed Ben's face. Once again thanking 
him.
    "Just for good dreams," She put her hands on his face, inching it closer. Ben did so. He smiled shortly. Then they kissed(I'm sorry guys. I had to do it!). Ben pulled up the blankets. He hugged Rey. Rey allowed him to pull her closer. Ben never wanted to let go. Rey grabbed his hands. Gently squeezing them. She quickly re positioned. This caused Ben to feel a bit awkward.
    After about 10 minutes, Rey was the first one to fall asleep. Her quite and rhythmic breathing informed Ben't of this. She let love and Ben's comfort take over her. Ben on the other hand, was still afraid to loose her. He kept telling himself that he wasn't going to loose her, and that he was never going to turn back into Kylo-Ren. After finally submitting to the thought, he placed his chin on her head, and he too, feel asleep.

    His dream was all overjoying, but yet sad at the same time. He saw his mother. Soon later followed by Chewie. The destruction of Star Killer Base. Rey in the forest. In their training. Finally, he saw Han Solo. His own father greeted him with open arms. Ben ran up and hugged him, soon followed by Leia, and Chewie. They all pulled apart, smiling, a whole family again. He looked at Han. He had a look of forgiveness yet sorrow in his eyes. So did Leia. Oddly enough, Chewie was gone. They started to fade away. So did Ben. Before they were truly gone, they all hugged for the last time. Ben woke up. He slowly opened his eyes. He pulled back the hair from his face.He looked out the window. It was past dawn. He sat up, but stopped midway. He looked at Rey. He slowly pulled out his arm. Still sleeping, he thought to himself. He sat up, quickly messing up his hair. He looked at Rey, taking the time to see how beautiful, when the sun shone at her. Her hair gleamed, and her skin warmly glowed. He got up, put on his simple shirt, and walked out. He walked out to the balcony, opening up the glass doors. There ware 3 birds in the fountain, and a few squirrels on the floor, chatting. A few squirrels ran off by the sound if the door. Some stayed, the birds were still bathing. He took in the sunlight, the fresh air, and the living force in everything. He stayed in this trance for about 5 minutes. Realizing that Rey is going to be up in a few minutes, he went to the kitchen, and made a simple fruit platter, with some cushnips.
    Rey woke up, stretching, and yawned. She looked over to where Ben was. he wasn't there. She got up, grabbed her robe, and put her hair into a simple bun. She walked out, and saw that Ben had prepared breakfast. She wondered, if any girl in the galaxy was lucky enough to have a boyfriend like Ben. 
    "Oh. Good morning," said Ben. He had already made the fruit platters for them both. the cushnips were already done. 
    "Thanks," said Rey as Ben gave her, her plate. "So what are we going to do today?"
    "Don't you remember? To see Finn and Poe."
    "Oh. Yeah." Rey looked down at her platter and began to ate. The ate in silence. When they were both done, Ben took their plates, and put them in the sink. 
    "So what should be bring?" asked Ben.
    "Well obviously food, and a med-kit. And tools for the Falcon," she said.
    "Well I was thinking, since the Falcon  isn't doing very well, I was thinking that we could take my shuttle," offered Ben.
    "Are you sure? I think the Falcon is better because-Oh... that's why. Still healing from that I guess?"
    "Somewhat. I guess."
    "Don't worry. He already forgave you." Rey kissed him on the cheek quickly. "Thanks's for making this work out."
    "If it means making you happy," he said affectionately.They hugged. It was interrupted by a transmission from Finn. Rey walked over and opened.
    "Hey guys!" said Finn.
    "Hi Finn!" said Rey happily.
    "So how are you doing?"
    'We're doing fine. Thanks for asking," Said Ben almost like he was annoyed.
    "Yeah, me and Ben are fine, thanks for asking!"
    "So if we wondering if we could go to your guys's place today. If that's okay with you guys."
    "Yeah we were goi-,"
    "Who exactly is 'we'?" Said Ben interrupting Rey, now walking into view.
    "Just me, Poe, Chewie, and BB-8."
    "Ben! Of course you can come. We were actually going to come as a surprise."
    "Okay! We'll be there at around, noon. So you guys then! Bye!"
    "Bye!" Rey turned off the transmission. "Ben what as that all about?
    "Which part. When I said that We were fine, or when I interrupted you?"
    "Both! Honestly, Ben, whenever Finn comes into the picture, you get so annoyed!"
    "Maybe it's because of the past. Ever thought of that?" Ben yelled. Rey took a step back, obviously hurt. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have yelled at you," he said.
    "I know that your still hurt, about thinking about Kylo. But you have to forgive yourself. Look. If this never happened. We would've never met. I would've been stuck on Jakku. You would never be there to destroy the First Oder from the inside. You have to let go, and just let me in! Please."n 
    "Your right. I haven't forgiven myself. Not yet anyways. I've already let you in. And you know that. I just wanted to ask you something. Rey-" he took her hand, "I love you more than anything else in this world. You are the Sun of my life. So Rey," He knelt down, and grabbed a small box from his cloak. "Will you mary me?"
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Sorry that it's a little long, but I just couldn't help it! It was all to much to hold!! I will try to post up the next one ASAP after I write it down and edit it! You have no idea how much it means for you guys to read this!! Please Like share and if you want to, follow!

But for now good-bye don't die, and have a great day!!
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Rey- *After getting back from Jakku only realizing everything is gone, she goes straight back to Takodana, her new home. She puts her ship in her hanger. She can't let the thought leave her mind. She's lost everything on Jakku. Her hopes. Her speeder. Even Unkar is gone.*

Ben- *Noticing that Rey is back, he gets out of his quarters to greet her.* So... how was it? *Ben seemed to notice a bit of sadness in her eyes. He could also feel it in her.*

Rey- *distant from his question only a few seconds later she realizes that he has asked her a question.* Wh-what? oh, it was fine. I-I guess.     * she walked out of the hanger and to her quarters. 

Ben- *He is puzzled at why Rey is so distant, and follows her.* What's wrong? * He asks catching up to her* Did something bad happen?

Rey- I said it was fine! *Rey nearly yelled and Ben. She was now trying to hold back a tear.* I-I just.. need to be alone.*she continues walking*

Ben- *He puts a hand on her shoulder(god I almost spelled solider)and asks her again.* There is something wrong. What is it? Just tell me.

Rey- *She slaps Ben's hand away now stopping in her tracks. Her feelings were now of pain, sorrow, and agony. She felt like she has just lost herself. Now she was completely trying not to cry.* Y-you wouldn't understand. *She is now walking notably slower.*

Ben- *He could feel her mixed emotions, as though he was experiencing them him self. She was definitely not fine. He wasn't gonna let her be consumed by these thoughts. Now grabbing both her shoulders, he makes Rey face toward him.* Rey I know that you are sad. Just tell me what is the problem! I'm here for you. *He comes down to her level.*

Rey- *Only letting her eyes come in contact with his for 1 second, she quickly looks away.* Ben, I'm just-just--.

Ben- *He made Rey's face point toward his* Just what? Just tell me already. What is going on? Come on Rey! Jus-.

Rey- *She bursts into tears. Completley broken. Fallen apart. She wants to feel safe. Warm. Loved. She hugs Ben. She wants to be with someone she trusts and feels safe around. She doesn't want anything more. Now she is sobbing all her pain away.

Ben- *Extremely surprised, he stops everything for about a few seconds. He is overwhelmed by Rey's sorrow. Her pain and agony. But strangely enough, her love. Feeling a bit awkward, he hugs her back.* What happened?

Rey- Everything, everyone, it's all gone. *she was now sobbing really hard. She squeezed Ben. She put her head on his chest. Now crying in his clothes*

Ben- *He put's a hand on her head, stroking her hair. Not knowing what else to do, he keeps on reassuring her. Not letting go of her. He feels the need to protect her from all pain.* It-it's okay. Your safe now. Everything is fine. * He keeps on reassuring her until she stops.*

Rey- *She pulls apart from Ben.*

Ben- *He wipes her last tears from her eye.*

Rey- *Now feeling completely reassured, she starts to slowly to back away.* I-I'm going to bed. *She walks away*

Ben- I'll be in my quarters, you know, if you need me. *He quickly kisses her then goes back.*

2 Hours later

Rey- *Unable to sleep, she goes in Ben's room realizing that he is still there. But he is meditating. She waits. Than asks.* Ben?

Ben- *At the end of his meditation he looks up at Rey* Yes?

Rey- C-can I sleep with you tonight? *She is blushing at this question.*

Ben- I don't see why not. I was going to ask you if you wanted to anyway. Just give me a minute to change. he closes the door behind her. He was somewhat embarrassed by the thought.*

Rey- *She removes the hair ties to her buns, and letting her hair run straight down. After leaving, her thoughts come back. She tries to push them away. Then the doors open.* 

Ben- Umm... you can come in now. 

Rey- *she nods then walks in. She let Ben go on first onto his bed. Then she climbs in. She rests her head on his chest.* Only realizing what she had just done, she quickly pulls back and sits up.* Is-is this, you know, okay with you? I mean, are you comfortable with this?

Ben- *Now blushing he pulls up* um... I don't see why not. What ever makes you feel comfortable. *realizing how stupid the question was he just lay back down, feeling embarrassed.*

Rey- *She lays back down on him. After a few moments, she realized Ben was asleep. She started to feel tired. Her feelings and negative thoughts are all gone. Ben was breathing softly. She let that lull her to sleep. And after a minute she fell asleep.*
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I will make a part 2 when I have the time. Thanks for reading this!!
#reylo #fanfiction #couples #kylorenxrey #bensolo
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My life is sad




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    This has been happening constantly. So what happened is that some kid in my school figured out that I'm a furry. He now calls me disgusting. It's really been getting to me. My friends now seem to have rejected me because they found out. They don't talk to me anymore like they used too. I go out in the world and constantly feel judged and attacked. Ever since Trumps election, I have really figured out how many people HATE Mexicans for just another chance, and maybe a last chance, to be safe. I go out in the world, and just feel hated from people. They judge me for who I am not. I am bad at math which really doesn't hep. I fit the Bad Mexican profile. Also my family has always been THE mathematicians. I'm just here. With art. That is my only talent. They want me to be the EXACT brain clone as them But I really just can't. So I'm kinds the outcast. No one wants me anymore. People call me wonderful, but I see the pity in their eyes. They try to understand, but they can't. They have never felt hated like me. From 2+ communities.
Fangirl=delusional person with no life.
Furry=disgusting person who's only interest is porn and nasty things.
Reylo= stupid shit with nothing better to do.
MEXICAN= A stupid drug dealer that does not belong here. THey should go back to their country, and we don't care id they die there, because they re nothing and they will be nothing.
This what people think of me. All the hate I receive on a daily basis. Yes I am happy at times, and I feel good about this, but people are constantly bring me down. I can't defend myself because I don't talk. No one wants to hear my pleas for help, or my cries for forgiveness. At this point I have just become background noise stuck on repeat. No one thinks or even listens to me. I just want to be in a hole with all this sadness, and everyone else's so they never have to feel this way, like I do. I can't help but instantly think like this. It's been a day to day struggle. People have told me to just get over it, but you can't. You are at the bottom of the ocean with no air to swim up. You are stuck there.
It's impossible. Like that Rhymes of sticks and stones. Words do hurt more than broken bones, because they never stay with you for long. It's a funny memory. But this is one that sticks with you. You see how people see you. How they view you. It's just a wound that never heals properly. This all I can now feel. Happiness is now almost an illusion to me now. I just want to be in a box forever. But I can't. I broke a long time ago. I see the true secret of the world, and politics. I see how corrupt it is. How far we will go to see who is right. Even if it means death of others.

Just please. Help me.

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Endermanguy11 Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey
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scourgeclaw99 Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hi
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Endermanguy11 Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
How have you been?
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scourgeclaw99 Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Sick
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Ven-the-Shadowfly Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you kindly for the favorite! <3

Please remember that your character is more important than your appearance, race, background, etc.!

Don't let those hateful trolls/bullies get to you!

Have a great day! :heart:
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CrystalC33 Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you so much for the fave!
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SheltieWolf Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hello!
Thank you for the watch! :)
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Animefan-nopbidc Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2017
Thanks for the watch.
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